I wandered through the arched doorway into the former church. I remember walking past the building years before with it’s boarded up windows and city worn stonework. It had been brought back to life by a canny businessman who had turned it into a successful bar, restaurant, nightclub, wedding venue and all round place to be for the trendy westenders. Read the rest of this entry »

I have just finished reading an article in The Knowing Field magazine about pets representing missing family members in family constellations.  This is something that has come up from time to time in individual and group constellations that I have facilitated where an individual has displayed a great attachment to a pet and often ‘sees’ the pet before other members of their family, focusing on the family cat for example and being oblivious to a child or partner. Read the rest of this entry »

I feel quite detached as I park the car at the underground station and walk the short distance to the bridge over the river. I am meeting someone at the bridge. She is something of an expert on prostitution and sex crimes in the area. I had mentioned my previous experiences with Pat Jones and we decided it would be interesting to take a walk down the river from the bridge, listening to the voices of the past and seeing if they correlated with her knowledge of the murders and violence that had taken place there. Read the rest of this entry »

Sometimes we go through phases in our life where we feel lost. Our sense of belonging disappears and instead is replaced by uncertainty about who we are, where we belong and the path ahead. What if these feelings we are experiencing are not ours alone? What if we are following the fate of those that have gone before us? The following is an example of an ancestral pattern and family constellations session that explores an individual’s struggle with his sense of self. I have not gone in to full detail or outlined every aspect of the session; instead I have offered some observations of the patterns uncovered and the resolutions that came to light. Read the rest of this entry »

Today I went down to the loch and had a picnic in the rain with my little boy. We built a ‘sandcastle’ on the pebbly shore and threw stones in to the water to make great big kersplooshes. Prior to the impromptu picnic I’d been feeling a little bit rubbish. A lot rubbish. And for quite some time. Why? I have been feeling completely and utterly blocked. Unable to write. Unable to sit still for any length of time and generally a little bit stuck. What prompted this? Did something horrible happen? Em, no. I signed the contract for my next book that is what happened…and then I couldn’t write. I’m sure I’ll laugh about this in a few months time. Read the rest of this entry »

The excitment of the week included my site and blog being hacked and wiped by our server…nice. So I have done my best to piece it all back together… All your lovely comments are forever lost, if you find this as sad as I do then feel free to read through all the words again and add your comments afresh

Mr Hacker if you are reading this…bugger off.

I am looking through her eyes…for the moment I am her.  I can feel myself sitting on the edge of the bed. As I look round my vision blurs and I feel woozy. I try to focus, to become accustomed to the blur and the trails in my vision. Read the rest of this entry »

I try to scream but the sound won’t come out of my mouth. All my energy is focused on putting one foot in front of the other and running. Keep running! Where to? What from? I don’t know. I just know that I have to keep moving. Read the rest of this entry »

The knife on the floor catches my eye. I see it glint with the light of the otherworld and then I see the drops of blood. I feel the pain in my back as the blade is plunged within flesh and my breath leaves me. Read the rest of this entry »

The spinal column and the psychic-energetic column it is purported to hold has many myths and traditions surrounding it from karmic encoded DNA to Kundalini energy. The philosophical explanation of karma can differ slightly between traditions, but the general concept is basically the same, through the law of karma, the effects of all deeds actively create our past, present and future, making us responsible for our own life, as well as all that it brings to both ourselves and others. Read the rest of this entry »